Marcy

Tom Collins Anyone?

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 06:51:35 GMT

So its been about a year since i've witten anything here, but I figure since I should be doing homework, right now seems like the best time. Nothing is really new, just different. I still have work and school going on, even though I feel like I should have a lot more accomplished by now but i guess you're going to lose a few. I've come to the conclusion that I really want to be a bartender...I think it would be good times.

Other than that, there isn't really anything profound thats happened. Ex bf Chris called a few times during the summer when he was hammered drunk...so those calls were always funny. It makes me think of him as such a hypocrite because he use to give me such a hard time about wanting to go out and drink with my friends...and now he he does it like all the time. But him calling really helped me stop thinking about him altogether. Before he started calling, I would still think about him on occasion and whatnot. But after he called just shitfaced drunk and after i saw him like that (he was stranded in turlock and needed a ride) I was just like whatev about him.

95 days until my birthday.

And the Beat Goes On....Or Something...

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 22:20:23 GMT

So its been awhile since I last posted anything, and I guess a lot has been going on. I've been busy with school, and I'm actually not failing any classes yet. Work still stucks and now we have cameras, which sucks even more because we have to pretend to look like we're doing stuff. Jennifer had her baby, and I'm a bad friend and have yet to see it. The trip to San Diego was fun, it was even more fun bc we all were mean to Eila. Mexico was also fun, even though the Hard Rock Cafe wouldn't let us take our nuclear weapons inside.

My parents 30th wedding anniversary is in about 10 days, and I don't know what I'm suppose to get them, if anything. I can't imagine being with anyone that long, considering I couldn't even stay with Chris for more than a year. We've been broken up for about 5 months now and I still have the occasional dream or thought about him, which really sucks. I just want him out of my head because I'm pretty sure I'm out of his. What really sucks is that I haven't really found anyone to help me take my mind off him. There are some cute guys in my classes or other guys that I hang out with, but there is still something that is keeping me from being really into them.

Oh well, I guess you're going to lose a few.

Epiphanies Make Everything Better

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 07:39:09 GMT

Today was the first day of school and I was actually excited about it. Being stuck with my own thoughts day in and day out was no fun so now I'm glad I have something to focus my attention on. Especially since the last couple semesters I haven't done that well, I now feel ready to get myself back on track. Back in the day I wanted to transfer to a better school UC Riverside, or go somewhere far; when I dated Chris though I knew I wanted to stay local. Now that we're not together I want to go back to having goals again. Anywho, the classes were cool since I've taking 3 of the 4 already. Its funny though my health teacher is a black guy who's a basketball coach and can't seem to control the volume of his voice. Also, he talks like Jesse Jackson.

Sidenote, I hate working with all girls because it throws my cycle all out of whack. One of them just mentions that they've started their period and I'm like "dammit, I need to go to the bathroom."

Yep.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 19:49:58 GMT


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I Thought I Was Having a Nervous Breakdown, but It Was Just Indegestion

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 19:38:17 GMT

I want to say that a lot has been going on since I last posted something, but there really hasn't been too much really. I'm still broken up with Chris and i'm not sure how I feel about it, but oh well.

There's work drama like always, but i'm glad I've been gone from work for 4 days...I needed it. I think i'm ready to start looking for a new job. Granted, DQ is really kick back, since we have time to have a game where we just trip each other and keep score. I am just tired of getting crap pay for doing as much as I do there. But also I like being in charge there, and I don't know how I would like having to be told what to do again.

So Chris and I have been broken up for almost 3 months now, even though it really hasn't felt that long. I still really miss him which kind of makes me mad because I didn't think i'd feel this way for so long. I text him when we were "camping" in Oakdale, and we got to talking and he let me know that he had moved on. Later on though, he had told me he had moved on because he thought I had and that he had lost faith in us getting back together. I just don't know what I want when it comes to him and I don't think I ever will. Its like, I just want to be with him and be able to hang out with friends after work and maybe even smoke hookah or something like that. Since that probably would never happen, we probably will never get back together. So it just makes me sad to talk/see him now thats why I deleted him off my myspace and deleted all the numbers out of my phone associated with him. I didn't do it out of malice, I just did it because it almost hurts to think about him. Well, maybe a little malice because he had his ex girlfriend on his page and I never really liked that beezee.

I'm glad I came to S.D. for the weekend, the getaway was much needed. I kind of don't want to go back to Turlock yet, but I have to since I work wednesday...blah. I got away from everything that was bothering me and apparently I got away from the desert weather they've been having up there. The only reason I want to go back is because Chewy misses me and now he just stays in the laundry room waiting for me to come back. So my thanks to Nick for letting me live in him room for a few days, I don't think he knows how much I appreciate it.

Word to Your Mother.

Mon, 01 May 2006 09:17:11 GMT

Chris and I broke up again. This time seemed different from all the other times somehow. Usually when we break up there is a lot of crying and anger and emotions flaring between the both of us. This time there were just sniffles and a lot of nodding, like we both knew that breaking up might actually be for the best. It just sucks because I do want to be with him, and I know he wants to be with me but I don't think we're ready to be with each other. He is stubborn about the way he thinks things should be and I'm the same way. If I feel like he is doing things to change me, then I just get bitter and throw little temper tantrums about every 15 minutes which isn't fair to anyone. It just makes me sad because I know a lot of it is that this was my first real serious relationship and I didn't really know what I was doing. So when he said things like he wanted to be with me forever it would just kind of scare me because I didn't really know if I could settle down already. For both of us, it just felt like he was trying to change me and thats not what either one of us wanted. Since day one he said that he couldn't go out with a girl that would smoke/drink; so that really was never a big deal because I knew what I was getting into. But it just sucked when he would make comments about me going online and question all the people I had on my myspace (mainly all the guys). Considering about 95% of them are people from high school I never really thought it was a big deal, but I guess it was to him. I just wish he would have known how things were back in high school because then he would know that he wouldn't have anything to worry about.
So I think we might actually be broken up for awhile this time, unless we both magically grow up in the next few days. Its just depressing because in a way I feel like a failure since I couldn't be what he wanted me to be. We both knew that something had to happen tonight, either I attempt to become the person he wanted me to be i.e. someone I'm not. Or we would have to end things or else we would just end up getting into fights all the time. It just hurt when I was getting ready to leave, how he was talking like he regretted ever going out with me and how he should have gotten to know me better before ever getting together with me in the first place.
I still love him and I still want to be with him, but I know its just not the right time right now. Its depressing to know that you're letting someone go who thinks you're their whole world and that you might never find that again. I just hope I don't end up kicking myself for this and tell myself that I had love and I just let it go.

Humbug.

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 08:55:04 GMT

Blah, I freakin hate work right now. First of all, I just got home about 20 minutes ago which really sucks bc I have to open tomorrow. Also it sucks bc our bathrooms broke so I had to mop up ass loads of water, twice. Third and most of all, I hate it when Dave talks to me like i'm stupid. I'm giving serious thought to putting in my two weeks notice sometime soon. The only thing that is really stopping me from doing it is that I don't have a back up job to fall on, and I know that I'll probably get too lazy to look for another one. Oh well, I have to give some more thought to all of that.

Other than it being Michelle's birthday on the 27th, it was also chris and mine 1 yr (w/o all the breaking up) So he got me a new phone (a slvr) and I got him a tatoo which looks really cool. It took like 3ish hours for him to get, and its a tribal design on his right arm.

I'm too tired to talk about anything else, and i'm going to be even more tired tomorrow because of the stupid time change. Of course the one time I actually work a morning shift the time has to go and change!

Humbug!

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 22:00:08 GMT

I hate you guys.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 00:34:17 GMT

So the 27th was Chris' and my 10 month anniversary, and two days after that we broke up. I'm pretty sure this time its for good because we're going to be returning stuff to each other sometime.

We had been fighting for a few days and it just didn't feel the same anymore, the last thing I wanted to do was hurt him but I couldn't stand being an asshole to him all the time. I wanted things to stay at least a little civil, because he was my first love and everything. But that went all downhill when he kept telling me that he hated me and how i'll never be able to find anyone to love me the way that he did.

So after all that I was a sobbing mess and I stayed parked next to Shaleen's house for awhile. I managed to get ahold of Sarah and she was able to comfort me the best she could (mostly by telling funny work stories) and I really do appreciate her being there for me.

The thing that really sucks is that I don't think he really ever understood how I lived before I met him. He seems to think that I was like a hardcore partier and all I wanted to do was to drink and hook up with guys. I tried to tell him that if he asked any of my friends that I could go hang out with everyone and not drink or smoke or anything like that. It also sucked because he would always say that my friends were more important to me that he was. Which is really hard to talk about because my friends were like family before I was with him, considering I never really get along with my family. The one person he never understood my friendship with was Oscar. But thats a whole other subject.

Oh well, I just wish things were better. Thanks to all who have been trying to cheer me up it really means a lot to me.

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 02:20:05 GMT

I have flowers growing in my ears.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 09:08:41 GMT

They've sheered my dog like a sheep!

Feliz Naviblah

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 18:42:51 GMT

Your Birthdate: November 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life.
And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others.
You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented.
Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage.

Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck

Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Half Moon

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Mappy Kwanzakah '05

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 22:02:14 GMT

I wish we had another one of those, because I remember that being good times.

I talked to Oscar for a whole 5 minutes and we decided that a posse should get together when everyone gets back from school and we'll go see him at his new house. So I need to know when everyone is getting back & who would want to go. We don't have Wang anymore so that won't be a problem, maybe we'll take the box.

So Chris got his braces off on monday so that was cool. And we had a good time for his birthday too. We went to a warriors/suns game and he wore the new basketball jersey that I got for him and his team actually won for once :)

The End.

I'm Laughing Because I Was Reading So Well

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 07:06:44 GMT

I'M FINALLY 19, WOOT SQUARED!

So its been forever and a day since i've been online, but oh well i've been too busy to really notice anyway. I'm still in school, but its not like I do any home work or anything like that so i'm not even sure why I still go. Next semester doesn't seem like its going to be any easier, so I guess I have to stop playing with my balls and actually put in at least a little bit of effort. Bah.

Work has been okay, i'm still a manager-in-training, which i've been since june. It really sucks too because i've basically been a manager for a few months but without the raise. This has made me decide to start looking for another job, but it just sucks bc now christmas is coming up so i'm going to need money. Oh well, its good to know that i'm not alone when it comes to leaving the DQ Lounge, i think 4 or 5 other people are also thinking about it too. Oh, speaking of people from work, I think I finally made someone cry. That just makes me happy inside because damn, I was trying for a while to get someone to cry...and now I just feel so accomplished.

Chris and I are still together, and actually our 8 month aniversary is coming up in a few days. Things are still the same with him, but now its just harder to find time to see him since they make him work immigrant shifts at Radioshack. I feel sorry for him because he has to be at work tomorrow at 5:45am, stupid black friday. But things are still good, and its cool because he gets his braces off next month, and his birth is next month too; so there is lots of stuff to look forward to.

So I have to get to bed soon, busy day of cleaning tomorrow before people show up....even though i'm not even sure who's coming. I sent text messages to everyone, but apparently I couldn't really receive them bc my phone was acting all cha-cha mcnuggets about it so I had to switch to an old phone. So we'll just see what happens, even though I don't really have much planned; I just have food planned. Gonna lose a few I guess.

Gobbles!

Yes Oscar, I'm Still Alive

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 08:54:33 GMT

Well its pretty much been forever and a day since i've been online, let alone online long enough to actually post anything. So this is what has been happening as of late:

I hang out with Chris in all my spare time, which doesn't seem to be a lot since i'm always working now. Its cool because of the money (I just got a raise, woot) but it sucks because even though its a part time job I still had 78 hours on my last pay check. I do love hanging out with Chris though because I honestly never get tired of being around him, even if there is nothing to do we still find a way to not be bored.

It kinda sucks that he has to move back to his dad's house in Oakdale though, since its all because of me. His mom, brother and sister have all decided that they want to move so they're moving to Ohio by august 1st. Since Chris doesn't want to leave me, he's going back to Oakdale so that he doesn't have to move away :) Which really shows how much he cares since I know that he didn't really like living at his dad's house all that much. I know he is sacraficing a lot to just stay around, since I know he's really close with his mom and that means a lot to me. But the whole thing kind of brought up an interesting question that my mom ended up asking me. Which was, if he ended up moving away, would I go with him. It really made me think if I could really move away from all my family and friends (even though I don't see them as much as I use to) and go all the way to Ohio. It was just weird to think about and I didn't really make up my mind if I would do it or not. To move away is a scary thought to me, since i've never even moved out of a house before.

I think everyone should just get jobs at the DQ Lounge so i'd be able to see them more, even though I am a hardass at work. Oh yeah, YAY for Eila for getting her trainee sticker taken off already; i'm so proud :) Mostly because I trained her to be a badass like me.

We all need to go to rainbow pools sometime, since we haven't been there in forever.

Well, its late and I have to be up bright and early tomorrow because Chris and I are going to Santa Cruz for the day. I think i'll buy a camera instead of taking mental pictures.

Well best wishes to everyone, since I don't know when i'll be getting online again.

Word.

Can't Sleep

Mon, 09 May 2005 08:30:11 GMT

You Are A Chestnut Tree

You are a born diplomat with a well developed sense of justice.

And even though you're impressive and intimidating, you're also fun to be around.

You can be irritated easily, and you sometimes act superior.
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What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Birthdate: November 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.

Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.

You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.

You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.

A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Mon, 09 May 2005 08:06:20 GMT

Yep, we broke up over mario kart.

Thinking Too Hard Makes Me Fart

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:09:32 GMT

My thumb hurts from too much N64 last night, too much mario kart. I think we played until 4am but it was good times.

I got a good car wash yesterday by a mess of 6th graders. It was for a fundraiser but it was funny because the rents had just pulled in about 2 minutes before I had, so all the kids left their car to wash mine. Poor Wang only had about one girl washing him and my car had about 20 kids going at it. It didn't really matter much since it rained last night anyway.

Blah.

Tue, 03 May 2005 22:09:16 GMT

Down south was good times; I'm glad I took Chris cubed along for the ride. It was fun walking through the gap in LB and napping on the beach in SD.

Things between Chris cubed and I are good, when we're around each other, when we're apart things seem to turn to crapola. Honestly, if we didn't love each other i'm pretty sure we'd hate each other...if that makes any sense.

They should just go ahead and make me a manager at work already, they keep me there long enough as it is. Its good times, most of the time, but yeah I just don't feel like spending all day and all night there.

Everyone is coming home soon, woot!

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 00:46:45 GMT

Hey, so here is the game plan for this weekend. Leave Turlock tomorrow around 8ish and make my way over to Long Beach. Stay the night there and then bright and early saturday morning make my way over to San Diego. Stay the night and then be over in Santa Barbara by noon on sunday.

Also instead of bringing Jenny, like I was thinking about before, i'm going to bring Crapper along instead. Eila and a coin helped me figure that out. Anycrap, I don't know what we're doing where ever I go but I do know i'll be there in less than 24 hours, woot!

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 05:48:49 GMT

I broke up with Crapper earlier tonight, I feel horrible.

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 07:22:36 GMT

I have friday, saturday and sunday off from school so I can go visit everyone down south, but I just need to know when would be a good time to see everyone so I can map out a plan. I'm thinking about bringing Jenny along even though I haven't talked to her about it....So yeah.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 21:05:14 GMT

So instead of calling everyone by racial names like 'mexican' or 'asian-face' i've gotten into the habit of calling them all 'damn goobacks' It seems to work, especially when i'm driving...makes me feel alittle less like a racist...Oh well, good times.

What Did the 5 Fingers Say to the Face?....SLAP

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:52:38 GMT

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:44:24 GMT

LAYER ONE: The Basics
Name: Marcy
Birth date: November 17th
Birthplace: Turlock, CA
Current Location: Turlock, CA...still
Eye Color: Mexican brown
Hair Color: Dark brown and black
Height: 5'5 & 1/2"
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
Your heritage: 1/2 Mexican & 1/2 Native American Indian
Shoes you wore today: My beautiful brand new basketball shoes
Your weakness: Love...Shopping
Your fears: Mi Madre
Your perfect pizza: Pepperoni lover from Pizza Hut, pan crust
Goal you'd like to achieve: Eventually graduate from a UC

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your most overused phrases on AIM: word, blah
Your thoughts first waking up: ugh..........
Your best physical feature: My hair & eyes I guess, I got indian all up in it
Your bedtime: usually around 12:30a

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Neither, I don't drink soda
McDonald's or Burger King: BK lounge, but mc d's for fries and hash browns
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: NIKE of course
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE: Do You?
Smoke: yes, only when i drink
Cuss: FUCK ya
Sing: always
Take a shower everyday: Sure....
Have a crush(es): of course
Like(d) high school: Sure, it wasn't all that bad
Want to get married: eh, sure
Believe in yourself: yep
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're attractive: eh, I have my days
Think you're a health freak: No, but Amrita thinks i'm freak bc i don't drink soda
Like thunderstorms: yes
Play an instrument: nope, never...unless you count the recorder
LAYER SIX: In the past few months have you...
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: Yes
Done a drug: yeah
Made Out: yes
Gone on a date: yep
Gone to the mall?: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos®: nah
Eaten sushi: nope
Been on stage: don't think so
Been dumped: nope
Gone skating: nah
Gone skinny dipping: lol
Dyed your hair: nope
Stolen anything: no.....
Lied: nope....ok maybe once or twice

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: i'm sure i have
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Not as bad as most
Been called a tease: yep yep
Gotten beaten up: never
Shoplifted: its possible

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
Age you hope to be married: whenever
Numbers and Names of Children: 2, Trent & Damien
Describe your dream wedding: Never thought about my wedding
How do you want to die: What...like step by step?...
What do you want to be when you grow up: Successful
What country would you most like to visit: um....France?

LAYER NINE: In a girl/guy?
Best eye color? Blue, but I like any
Best hair color?: any as long as it isn't gross
Short or long hair: either works, but I guess I like short
Height: Taller than me
Best first date location: the movies or Denny's

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
Number of people I could trust with my life: Um, 4
Number of CDs that I own: i can't count them there all over the place
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: like 2-3 times bc i'm cool like that
Number of scars on my body:Too many to count, woo for being a tomboy
Number of things in my past that I regret: No Regrets, ha!